Feeling this unsuitable for my main blog. I choose this text to inaugurate journaling here.
Staring out the window at the tarmac. The high-pitched whines are only slightly muffled by the clear panes in front of me. I am in Madison, waiting for my plane back to Cleveland. Returning to many wonderful things -- wonderful people, especially -- but still returning to Cleveland, though only to remain for a brief 48 hours until I'm off again. I do so enjoy traveling.
Here for work, but also here for joy. The pleasures of the traveling are just as great as the purpose and destination. Yet, the concept of "home" and of "work" wear on my soul. Both necessary evils, but both sometimes require some shaking up. I need to not live in Cleveland anymore. Low on the list of reasons are any related to the positives and negatives of actually living in Cleveland. Even lower still (nonexistent, in fact) is any desire to change activities, careers, paths, or whatnot; I enjoy very much what I'm doing, but I'm losing tolerance for where I'm doing it. At the very top is the simple fact that I've stayed put for too long. I can't even sit still at my desk for more than an hour. How have I stayed in Cleveland for seven years without having gone mad? Or am I mad? Don't answer that.
Insane as it may be, the conference I attend for work here in Madison has strongly reinforced the notion that I want to go back to school, pursue some more education, and end up with some more alphabet soup after my name. Or is the reflection of the grass too green, the memories too distant? Perhaps. Still, I think, I was happier with what I was doing when I was in school. I was more displaced. I was less comfortable. I can't stand being comfortable. It frightens me. I fear losing what needs to be lost in order to be comfortable. I will not have it.
I have no course charted, no plan of action to execute on this wanderlust, but perhaps it's time I had one.